Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Happy Day!
This made my smile widen a couple of weeks ago.
Today seemed like a good day to share it with the world. :)
Today seemed like a good day to share it with the world. :)
Friday, April 16, 2010
Hmm...
Recently life has hit me pretty hard in the face.
The semester is almost over which means I only have one full year left until I will be job searching. Teaching positions have been dramatically cut in Illinois, especially in the NW suburbs. A lot of Special Education classes have increased in size so that they can reduce the number of teachers they're hiring. As a future Special Educator I find this super disturbing--most SE kids need smaller classrooms, not bigger ones! They need more individualized attention and accommodations to help them adapt to the curriculum and they just won't be getting it in larger classrooms. Not to mention that the teachers who are in charge of all this will get burnt out quickly which just makes things worse for the students! UGHHH. Why can't I be in charge of the Board of Education for Illinois?
Since all of this is happening because of budget cuts and state not paying back what they owe to school districts. This just makes me wonder--will I get a job? Will the district be financially stable? Most first year teachers already make close to nothing so how much worse can this get for me? Just two days ago a law was passed that now teachers need to work until they're 67 in order to get full benefits when they retire. 67?! Are you effing kidding me? That means I'll be working in the school systems for 45 years before I can retire. That's so overwhelming to me right now. AH.
And on the emotional home front it's been kinda messy. BF is leaving for his tour in a few weeks and will be gone for 2 months with boys that make him act not so nice. I can't tell him not to go but it super sucks. I'm worried about how he's going to be acting while he's gone but he's not even gone yet! I don't like the person who he is when he's with "the guys" but I can't really figure out what/why that is. He just becomes a different person--I can't describe it. Hopefully it won't happen again but you never know.
And he's missing our two year anniversary. Last year he almost missed my birthday. I don't want to make it all about me but that really sucks. It all makes me feel a whole lot less important than I should be. Is this even worth being upset over? Probably not but since it really hurts me I think it should be something taken into consideration. Now, I'll shut up and stop being a whiny bitch.
Summer is coming soon. I hate summer. I hate sweating. But I do love baseball! :) Hopefully I'll get to see a few games with my step dad, cousin, and a few other people this summer. I definitely won't make the 23 games like I did last summer but I can sure try.
Anyone out in cyber space have good Mothers/Fathers Day gifts that are simple and cheap? I'm broke but I want to do something nice for my parents. Get at me.
Peace. (I've always wanted to end something like this)
The semester is almost over which means I only have one full year left until I will be job searching. Teaching positions have been dramatically cut in Illinois, especially in the NW suburbs. A lot of Special Education classes have increased in size so that they can reduce the number of teachers they're hiring. As a future Special Educator I find this super disturbing--most SE kids need smaller classrooms, not bigger ones! They need more individualized attention and accommodations to help them adapt to the curriculum and they just won't be getting it in larger classrooms. Not to mention that the teachers who are in charge of all this will get burnt out quickly which just makes things worse for the students! UGHHH. Why can't I be in charge of the Board of Education for Illinois?
Since all of this is happening because of budget cuts and state not paying back what they owe to school districts. This just makes me wonder--will I get a job? Will the district be financially stable? Most first year teachers already make close to nothing so how much worse can this get for me? Just two days ago a law was passed that now teachers need to work until they're 67 in order to get full benefits when they retire. 67?! Are you effing kidding me? That means I'll be working in the school systems for 45 years before I can retire. That's so overwhelming to me right now. AH.
And on the emotional home front it's been kinda messy. BF is leaving for his tour in a few weeks and will be gone for 2 months with boys that make him act not so nice. I can't tell him not to go but it super sucks. I'm worried about how he's going to be acting while he's gone but he's not even gone yet! I don't like the person who he is when he's with "the guys" but I can't really figure out what/why that is. He just becomes a different person--I can't describe it. Hopefully it won't happen again but you never know.
And he's missing our two year anniversary. Last year he almost missed my birthday. I don't want to make it all about me but that really sucks. It all makes me feel a whole lot less important than I should be. Is this even worth being upset over? Probably not but since it really hurts me I think it should be something taken into consideration. Now, I'll shut up and stop being a whiny bitch.
Summer is coming soon. I hate summer. I hate sweating. But I do love baseball! :) Hopefully I'll get to see a few games with my step dad, cousin, and a few other people this summer. I definitely won't make the 23 games like I did last summer but I can sure try.
Anyone out in cyber space have good Mothers/Fathers Day gifts that are simple and cheap? I'm broke but I want to do something nice for my parents. Get at me.
Peace. (I've always wanted to end something like this)
Monday, November 16, 2009
postsecrets.
I've realized recently how many postsecrets I can relate to. It's kinda of sad and probably a little unhealthy that I go out looking for ones that make me feel like I'm not alone in my thoughts. Here are a few...
That is all for now.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Since Mike is Gone...
I figured I should update my blog for him on the off chance he remembers this exists.
My day started with waking up pretty early then going back to bed like most days. Though today was a tad different, I had to call Mike to get him up for his 9am flight to Houston. It was nice hearing his half coherent voice while he was still in the state. I'm going to miss that. When I finally really woke up Mike was boarding the plane so I decided to start to clean my closet but got really bored after about 5 minutes and went back to reading my book (that I'm not so big of a fan of). For some reason when I'm in a weird =/ mood I like to read and just use it as a way to escape, it sounds stupid but true, whatever. Also, while reading I was able to ice my eyes to get most of the puffyness out! SCORE!
After reading for about a billion years (or until Mike landed) I got up and had ice cream for breakfast, I'm so healthy I know (hopefully I will be soon, I feel like a diet is needed now). Then I went outside to talk to my mom for a bit and got a little sun burnt (which actually isn't so bad right now) then got into the shower to wipe all the sweat off. After that I just straightened up the house and got ready for my cousin's baseball game and got called names. Awesome.
I drove mom and myself to Grandma's and from there Grandma drove us to the game which was about an hour away. The game was awesome, my little cousin's team lost but I got to watch him score plus he was catching most of the game so I was a happy little lady. After the game Grandpa "borrowed" me and we drove to dinner (that none of us were really hungry for) but made a pit stop to the bridal shop before hand as a joke to try to get me married off. He keeps making weird wedding jokes at me that make me uncomfy and piss Grandma off. I don't know how to take any of it.
Dinner was weird and boring. Found out that Tracy is officially suing Grandpa, Grandma, and the company (like official, official as in they got the papers served to them by the sheriff). That kind of stuff just makes them so upset, I hate it. They deserve to be happy for the most part and I wish this thing would just get settled or someone could tell Marc and Tracy that they are complete assholes and take the kids away from them. Its sad that I'll probably never see my little cousins grow up, that means a lot to me. BLAH! After dinner I tried to cheer Grandpa up by letting him show me around his old area. He told me stories with way too much TMI like the time he and Grammy painted her bedroom in their underwear and "other stuff happened after" I ALMOST PUKED. But overall I think it was good for him to get his mind off things today.
After our drive we just hung out at his house until Grandma came home and I left for Ellen's. We just hung at her house for a few hours since we were going to see a super late movie. I got to play with the dogs and wear her sweet green hoodie (since her house was freezing!) until we left. The Proposal was an alright movie but wasn't worth $10. Oh well, Oscar from The Office was in it. I'm sick of love stories for awhile though. I think I'll just watch depressing movies or comedies for the next month or so. After the movie we just talked like normal and now I'm hereeeee. I'll probably read for a little bit before bed now, for some reason I can't sleep.
I have lots of stuff on my mind lately.
My day started with waking up pretty early then going back to bed like most days. Though today was a tad different, I had to call Mike to get him up for his 9am flight to Houston. It was nice hearing his half coherent voice while he was still in the state. I'm going to miss that. When I finally really woke up Mike was boarding the plane so I decided to start to clean my closet but got really bored after about 5 minutes and went back to reading my book (that I'm not so big of a fan of). For some reason when I'm in a weird =/ mood I like to read and just use it as a way to escape, it sounds stupid but true, whatever. Also, while reading I was able to ice my eyes to get most of the puffyness out! SCORE!
After reading for about a billion years (or until Mike landed) I got up and had ice cream for breakfast, I'm so healthy I know (hopefully I will be soon, I feel like a diet is needed now). Then I went outside to talk to my mom for a bit and got a little sun burnt (which actually isn't so bad right now) then got into the shower to wipe all the sweat off. After that I just straightened up the house and got ready for my cousin's baseball game and got called names. Awesome.
I drove mom and myself to Grandma's and from there Grandma drove us to the game which was about an hour away. The game was awesome, my little cousin's team lost but I got to watch him score plus he was catching most of the game so I was a happy little lady. After the game Grandpa "borrowed" me and we drove to dinner (that none of us were really hungry for) but made a pit stop to the bridal shop before hand as a joke to try to get me married off. He keeps making weird wedding jokes at me that make me uncomfy and piss Grandma off. I don't know how to take any of it.
Dinner was weird and boring. Found out that Tracy is officially suing Grandpa, Grandma, and the company (like official, official as in they got the papers served to them by the sheriff). That kind of stuff just makes them so upset, I hate it. They deserve to be happy for the most part and I wish this thing would just get settled or someone could tell Marc and Tracy that they are complete assholes and take the kids away from them. Its sad that I'll probably never see my little cousins grow up, that means a lot to me. BLAH! After dinner I tried to cheer Grandpa up by letting him show me around his old area. He told me stories with way too much TMI like the time he and Grammy painted her bedroom in their underwear and "other stuff happened after" I ALMOST PUKED. But overall I think it was good for him to get his mind off things today.
After our drive we just hung out at his house until Grandma came home and I left for Ellen's. We just hung at her house for a few hours since we were going to see a super late movie. I got to play with the dogs and wear her sweet green hoodie (since her house was freezing!) until we left. The Proposal was an alright movie but wasn't worth $10. Oh well, Oscar from The Office was in it. I'm sick of love stories for awhile though. I think I'll just watch depressing movies or comedies for the next month or so. After the movie we just talked like normal and now I'm hereeeee. I'll probably read for a little bit before bed now, for some reason I can't sleep.
I have lots of stuff on my mind lately.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
So, I heard this from a little bird...
That things were different before and I can't help but compare now to then. I don't exactly like how that makes me feel. Angry, sad, upset, foolish, or just plain stupid. I've been noticing the difference recently too, I was just to idiotic to notice it before.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
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